Monday, August 22, 2011

A time to grieve


So this has been a REALLY hard last few weeks. My dad went into the hospital for a very brutal treatment. He didn't come out. When walking into that hospital his liver, and kidneys were already severely compromised due to his liver disease and the other Organs working overtime to make up for it. After 30 yrs of sufferings, and these brutal treatments at age 56 He woke up long enough to express he was done fighting the battle, and wanted to be made as comfortable as possible. He was taken off the machines and switched to hospice where he passed away Saturday,August 13, 2011. His funeral was this past weekend and is now at rest. Although I am happy for him, that he is happy and pain free, and in a much better place, it's hard! I miss my daddy and the world feels empty without him in it. As a result of 2 weeks of hospital visits, and the worry and stress the last thing on my mind was excercise. I let things go and am scared to step on the wii fit to weigh in. According to new scale I am higher but not sure the accuracy of that thing. (it's not digital and those cheap scales never have been real accurate) So I will only trust what wii fit tells me as it was pretty close to what my digital scale would say. Planning on getting back to the workouts. All that lost weight from gruntstyles workouts have probably gone down the toilet with the stress, and lack of excercise while dad was in hospital up to his death,funeral. All I can do, is get back on the bandwagon, not beat myself up over it, and move on with life! Cheer me on ladies, I need major encouragement to get moving again, as my heart is still grieving for dad!
I did take a 1 mile walk yesterday, and 2 miles last monday, and 2 miles last sunday.

8 comments:

Katie said...

Honey, we are here for you. If you need anything, don't hesitate to reach out to us. Big hugs! I swear you & I know each other from something to do with stamping or flylady.

smallworldbiggirl said...

Sending lots of love, hugs and support your way.

Carter Family said...

Hugs and sending up lots of prayers and support, just let us know if there is anything we can do for you. I'm sure you will get back on track very soon

Heather @ Not a DIY Life said...

Just focus on moving forward. Allow yourself time to grieve, but don't allow that equal bad habits. Eat healthy food, exercise, drink water - all as a way to honor your dad. You can do it!

MNMSpecial said...

I'm glad you have the faith that you do as I know that has some comfort, but I also understand the empty spot in this world that he has left. I'm so sorry. When I think of you that hymn is in my mind and I hope you feel that peace and know God is with you.

Good luck finding the strength to pick up where you left off and weigh yourself again when you are ready.
Hugs and love to you Sister Sista.

@PamelaMKramer - A Renaissance Woman said...

Prayers for you and your family.

Shelley said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. Prayers and thoughts go to you and your family as you all work to find your way.

growingintome said...

I'm very sorry for what you've had to go through... You have a lot of people pulling for you!